SubscribeWe have been targeting for the longest time to upgrade our desktop’s memory or RAM. We currently have 1GB worth of memory, but we always have a lot of applications open – Torrent, Firefox, Yahoo Messenger, Media Player then Adobe Photoshop – so you can guess it would still be slow. Edil has been wanting to upgrade the OS to Windows Vista too so we really need additional RAM. We have heard IBM memory is better than the others. I personally would like to have at least 2GB of RAM. Fortunately, our CPU’s memory can be upgraded to 4GB 
. If that happens, navigating the web will be such a breeze!
Archives for June, 2007
Forgive the house, Im trying to revamp my blog I hope I get to finish this within the day *I hope*.
Most students acquire numerous student loans to get themselves through college. This is done while also doing part-time jobs. After graduation, what would have been a very nice salary to help them get by would be slashed to start paying for accumulated student loan debts. That’s where school loan consolidation comes in very handy. When a student avails of this loan while studying, he or she can really save up to 50% or more in monthly payments. With just one loan payment to take care, they can easily manage finances better. They can easily keep track of what to pay and when to pay every month.
It has just been one of those days when I am just really s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.
I want to take a leave from work but can’t.
Id like to really spend some time straightening things out – at home, with myself, with my kids. But there is always no time left. *sigh*.
Such is the story of my life.
Let’s see if I would be able to wing it this week.
Keep your fingers crossed!
Ugh, today is not good at all. First, I let my son go to school when there is no school – I woke Edil up at 6.30AM only to have them return, scowling, at 7AM. I missed today’s date! They should be back in class by June 20, and well, I thought it was the 20th already 
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Second, Martha’s poo-ing still. We went to the doctor and he has prescribed a vial of medicine to help increase the normal flora of her GI tract and well, she’s still poo-ing, five times a day! She is active and hyper, has a good appetite, on Hydrite and full milk, but as the doctor said, we cannot do anything but wait until the freaking bacteria is completely gone from her system. GET.OUT.WILL.YOU?!?! Martha is still OK, save for a big tummy due to gas – it seems her bacteria is gas producing as well. But it has been 10 days *sigh*. Can we not just prescribe an antibiotic? It is still viral in nature.
Third, I just found out some things that will completely turn around our short term plans. Our hands are tied and there is really nothing we can do about it but work around with is.
Fourth, I *might* lose big money over paid blogging. And then I totally screw up my blog a while ago! GRRR! Good thing it is back up.
Fifth, I want to go home. NOW.
And I am saying that with all smiles
Lots of things to be happy and look forward to today and the week ahead.
For one thing, Edil and I are celebrating two years of marriage on June 24th. It seems like a long time already! Our marriage is FAR from ideal, but we have and are continually working with our differences. And yes, no matter how many times I say I WANT OUT! (LOL), I dont. I love that man, perhaps more than him loving me, but you know, at this point, I dont care anymore. Somebody told me that you have reached another level of loving when it is no longer important who loves who more , and I really hope Im ON that level already. However, Im sure (fo sure!) that when Edil reads this, he would *violently* disagree, LOL. He takes great offense na mas mahal ko sya, assuming that his love is *not* enough, but it is. Even if I want and demand more, with how I am actually living right now, his love is enough. I think I only mistake wanting more love, when I only want more stability, more direction in our lives, and those things, they are achieved by working together
And in honor of our second year anniversary, let me share with you a post I made a two years ago, prior to our wedding. I think this is one of my *best* yet. Edil has yet to read this, but I think I just might print this and give it to him. He deserves it.
GHOSTSThis was inspired by Clarice’s post.
Me and Edil have been together for close to 10 years, since 1996. But we have broken up and gotten back together for more than you can count, the longest break up was in 2003, when I thought (well, since I was hella proud, I wanted to as well) that we would never got back together.
I guess love has always been there and we were really meant to be (story of us to follow if ever I have the guts to ever tell it here..hehe) that one fateful day of January last year he came back and the rest, they say is history. We were older, wiser, more mature and loved each other on a different level. The night we got back together, we both voiced the thought out loud: “Pakasal na tyo.” This is it.
But then, the past will always be a venue for hurt and ghosts to surface. When we separated, it was the first time in 7 years that I decided to have fun (meaning “magdalaga” — I’ve been with him since I was 15), and for him, out of bitterness, of all our issues, decided that he have fun as well. I fell in love with another guy on a different level and he had plenty of girls..as he ventured in modelling and pretty girls were aplenty – it was very easy to forget about me.
We decided to have the skeletons out of the closet talk after a week of being together and hearing all of them made me sick. I knew it would happen but hearing it straight from his mouth was something else. It hurt..a lot. Up to now, when I think about it, I still get misty-eyed. What more when I see their profiles in Friendster? Gawd, kung pwede lang maging biatch, sinabunutan ko na sila (or maybe post their pictures here kaya? hehehe).
With Edil, it was simple. He heard about 10 minutes of it and said, “Ayaw ko na. Ayaw ko nang malaman. Dont tell me anything.” He almost called our civil wedding date off because he thought I was still keeping in touch with him, pero hindi naman.
My whole point? I still get jealous, I still get hurt, I still get upset on little things such as “Why havent you still not posted our wedding announcement in Friendster?” issue (which he now rarely visits). But when he looks at you, you know, deep down, those are ghosts are just…ghosts..haunting you.
And ghosts are harmless when you simply make them harmless too.
I would like to believe ghosts exist simply because you believe in them.
So for now, for me, they do not exist.(I decided to make this entry to simply let go of issues. Edil might read this, his flings might read this, but I don’t care, mamatay sila sa inggit. He is mine. He always was
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That post was blatantly plagiarized, sadly, by an online *friend*. I was so shocked to read her blog, and read *my words* – word for word. Grabe.
Got this from Toni’s Wife Speaks Blog
(And I get such a kick answering these types of surveys lately!)
Medyo makulit ‘tong survey. Sasagutin ko ang mga backlog ko na tags ninyo — malapit na malapit na po. Bakit ako nagta-Tagalog? Ang dami ko na kasing mga dokumentong binabasa at sinusulat na nasa wikang Ingles kaya heto na’t magsusulat muna ako sa Tagalog.
Sagutin niyo na rin ang survey na ito. (Ano nga ba ang Tagalog ng survey?)
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Pancake – anong tagalog ng pancake?!
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Welcome me back to scrapping
Ive been feeling extra creative today and have cranking out layouts fast. I have a couple of pages to share about the men in my life so Im just going to share it one at a time so you wont get bored
*Clicking on the link will lead to a bigger sized layout – and you can read all the journalling there too .*
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