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This doesnt happen to me often these days.
So when Matthew fell asleep at 8PM last night, I was alone.
No one in the house yet.
What did I do?
Popped bossa nova songs on my PC and danced.
Currently loving the OST of Havana Nights.
If I could dance everyday of my life, I would.
I finally worked myself up to work on our music for the wedding. Don’t get me wrong. I looooove music. I’d rather listen to music than watch TV. If ever Id have the chance to watch TV (when it’s not on Nick or Cartoon Network), it’s on MTV. That’s how I love music. I remember we were TV-less for about 3-4 years. Times were hard and our 14-year old TV broke down and my parents had no money to buy TV. My siblings and I would sing every night. Totoo! Kasagsagan pa ng brownouts nun, kaya wala din effect sa amin. I distinctly remember singing Smokey Mountain songs before. Hmmm…may boses ako dati, ngayon wala na.
Anyway, the problem is though I love music, my memory is not that strong. I remember conversations to the pauses and dots but cant remember titles of songs nor names of people. Lagi na lang tampulan ng tuksuhan to sa bahay.
*Habang nanunuod ng TV*:
Aggie: Ano ba yan Ryan, ang pangit pangit.
Kuya: Sinong Ryan?
Aggie: Ryan! Tange! Yan o! (sabay turo sa lalaki sa TV)
Kuya: *sabay tawa* Nang imbento ka na naman! San mo nakuha yung Ryan? Christian yan!
Bwahahahaahha.
So, you can just imagine my helplessness going through “song lists” na puro titles lang. Susmio. Torture. Daig ko pa ang sumagot sa Physics exam. (I hate Physics).
Pero, and maganda dun, may nahingan ako ng tulong. Salamat din sa Internet. I was able to listen to songs I’m curious of the sound of — na nagpatagal sa process of selecting songs.
Im halfway done.
Hanap na lang ako ng mga upbeat songs for the grand entrance, cake cutting and wine toasting c”,)
Malamang curious kayo sa First Dance namin no? Hehehe…..Wag muna, debate-able pa to.
BUT I’m going to share with you the Father of the Bride Dance c”,). This was actually a song suggested by my cousin who is a musicophile. Super. Her wedding was more memorable because of the songs…and I think Inggo (her husband) cried more because of it (he didnt know any of the songs…as most grooms were…puro “Ikaw na bahala Mahal….”)
This is the only recent picture I’ve had with my Dad. Way back 2003 pa to. After he got out temporarily of the hospital so we can watch my mom’s show.
My Little Girl by Steve Kirwan
From the moment I first held you
And rocked you to sleep
In my heart I knew
A child is never yours to keep
I knew one day you’d learn to fly
But I never dreamed what I’d feel inside
As I dance the last dance
With my little girl
And the first with the woman
Who’s found her place in the world
I see the woman in you
But for my whole life through
You’ll always be my little girl
You wrapped me round your finger
Your smile made me melt
I wished so many times
I would’ve told you what I felt
From your first stepsto sweet sixteen
The rush of memories feels like a dream
I see the woman in you
But for my whole life through
You’ll always be my little girl
Ang nice no? Im just taking my cousin’s word for it as Ive yet to hear it. Sana kasing ganda ng lyrics yung melody.
And Ive promised not to cry pa naman on my wedding day 
17 Days to Go and Im Procastinating.
Gawd, I’m so anti-climactic. It’s crunch time already ang what am I doing? Yep, crunching. No. Munching. Munching on something.
The past few days I’ve been quiet doesn’t mean I was sooo busy with wedding preps. In fact, I have to admit I’ve been slacking, which just causes me momentary panic and then I begin to have this unbelievable calm even I dont want to feel. Im supposed to be panicking am I?
Im doing it again. I did it with every single important milestone in my life. Entrance test to college, Board Exams, the Final Q on pageants, a few minutes before Matthew’s head started crowning…I’m starting to detach myself. I have this way of “de-stressing” before a potentially stressful event. Parang, kayod kayod kayod tapos ooops…tama na. Whatever you do from here on, bahala na. Take it easy. Slow. Relax. I have always crammed and worked well with pressure na I slack off up until the “official crunch time” — mangyari kaya sa akin ‘to? Binabatukan na siguro ako ni Glo nito, hehehe.
Of course, I’ve been running wedding errands. Fitting here, ordering shoes there. But nothing an OC bride like I claim to be would do a few weeks of the event she had been planning for since that start of the year. Siguro kasi I have no one to help me with. Edil is the one down with the flu, Mom is busy, MOH has never been any help (except for the occasional pautangs now and then, and she has been in charge of the house), but wedding-related stuff, it’s all me. I haven’t opened my pink wedding folder since Saturday, and I haven’t organized the song list yet (pa din). The missallette is yet to be printed and we have yet to memorize our vows…pero, parang, kaboom…all of this is not important anymore?
I’ve been wanting to go out with Edil since June started. And so far, wala pa din. Parang I just want to prepare “US” for the wedding day itself. Matthew is starting Kinder School next week, so that’s another busy week.
And don’t get me started with the money. Maybe because I have just paid Matthew’s tuition and we have been running low on funds, that I’m guarded with buying wedding stuff – wine glasses, server sets, guestbooks…etc. Next week na lang sya, when our funds are revived with the upcoming sweldo.
Which leads me to…
I’m going to be on leave starting on June 15.
By that time, I resolve to focus on myself, on the change after the wedding that is going to take place, and cherish the last few days of my “single-ness-in-just-a-figurative-way” life.
My friends (I think) might come up with a bridal shower for me….naku, if ever they read this, kakapalan ko na mukha ko. I want something spa. No kinky stuff please. Baka turuan ko pa kayo (hahaha). Im reserving seeing another man’s d*** up to my lovely gay friends(Dereeeeeek????? Hindi ako nagpaparinig ha!). I dont care if I go to a spa every single day before the wedding or get a massage everyday….I just want to go to spa! Another June 24 wowie bride, Vi, and I are planning to do a “body wrap” a day before the wedding….our arms need wrapping eh, hahaha.
Ugh. I’m bored. All I want to do is sleeeep.
Hello,
Has it been that long?
I met you on a Sunday, April 27, 1993.Introduced officially on February 13, 1996.
Started being friends Holy Week of 1996.
The first time you told me you loved me was on June 30, 1996.
First time held hands on July 21, 1996.
Reciprocated on August 10, 1996.
On, Off, On, Off.
Until we got tired.
Surrendered the pride and decided to grow up,
let Love take over.
To forever, my Love.
Happy A.
taken from a love letter my mom wrote my dad 1968:
“You may not be my last, but you were my first,my song, the everlasting memory.”Always, always, ended my letters to him that way.
1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be…
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.
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1. If you could live in a single past decade, which decade would you choose and why?
I would love to live in the 60's. I love the music, the fashion, the icons. Also, it was a generally peaceful time before drugs, rock and everything else came in.
2. If you absolutely had to choose, which label (prep, jock, punk etc.) would you put yourself under?
Hmmm…this is a tough one, because I've always thought of myself as a non-labelled person. So, I googled for labels and read each “description” (totoo!), and I chose one: non-conformist . Not necessarily a rebel nor a traditionalist/conventialist, I go with my own flow and set my own pace 
3. Why do you continue to live?
Because I love. Simple as that.
4. Back then, If I had known better, I would've ______________.
Not indulged in anything sweet during my pregnancy. It would have made my life after, easier.
5. What's your favorite book? Which character from that book most resembled you?
Have you read Judith Mc Naught's “Paradise”? Classique love story, but I can see traces of myself in Meredith, the lead character. A homely girl who turns into a beautiful swan, hehehe Meredith and Matthew seemed like Edil and me in most points
from :
1. How did you feel when you found out you were expecting?
Initially, I felt numb. But since it was in my nature already not to sulk, I made plans. I had no time to feel sorry for myself. Besides, I thought, this was my “mistake”, I'm the only one responsible for it. I can fix it.
2. What's the most important lesson you've learned about life so far?
You've got to make plans, but you've got be flexible about changes. It's all about the Grand Plan!
3. Boat is sinking. Your husband and your son both do not know how to swim. Who'd you give the extra lifesaver to?
My son. Edil would have killed me if I have saved him first!
4. Kung ulam ka, ano ka?
Tapa. Matamis tamis na maalat..hahaha. Go figure )
5. What would you want to tell Mato when he's all-knowing and all grown up?
That he can enjoy life but be responsible for anything he does. And that I'm always here for back-up 
Eto muna, those from and next.
It’s all in the mind.
With that, and tons of kalamansi juice, I feel better. Besides, mind over body. I can make it. (I hope.)
Almost everybody has been down with the flu. Matthew has barely eaten for the last three days and five minutes ago, when I called Edil, he told me he feels he is coming down with something as well.
Great!
Just in time when I was supposed to have something special cooked up for our first year Civil Wedding Anniversary tomorrow.
Oh well…I guess bumming in front of the PC making guest cards and missallettes and eating chicken soup will do.
In other news, I’m off tomorrow, which basically means it’s lagari day na naman!
I’m off to have another TMU with Marlyn tomorrow (again) at 8AM since I cut my hair a tad too short. Sayang ang curls ko :c Oh well, ibang style naman. Plus, since my MU will be in the morning, I can see how my make-up will play fair in day light.
Then off to Printed Matter to get my magnets! Yippeeee! I’m quite excited to see the finished product already, I redesigned the layout to have borders on it which turned out better. Plus the papers were clear sheets so when they were printed on, they looked like Japanese rice papers.
I intend sana to:
- buy shoes
- buy toasting glasses, Bible, cake server sets and ballpens.
- poppers, bubbles, baskets for favors
- PS favors
- get tin cans for the pew arrangements in Dapitan.
But I have to confirm pa with Mrs. Del Rosario if I will be having my second fitting tomorrow, My corset/bustier is finished na daw. Oooohhh. the stress! I’m having nightmares looking horrendously B I G on my gown…ayan kasi si Aggie kinareer and wedding preps pero hindi ang dieting!
So far, corresponding with Center Table has been easy. I fax questions, like 10 or more, and they reply via calling me, or faxing me back. This beats 500 pesos of gas going to Merville for a two-hour talk. Just need to schedule the taste test and mock up next week. Before that, I need to meet up with Steve so he can show his mock up on the centerpieces so I can decide.
I have talked with my Aunt who’s going to sponsor my flowers and since she was the one who let me borrow her tons of Martha Stewart Magazines, she appreciates my vision. She even told me where to get really cheap tin cans, and ribbons and materials for the topiaries Steve is going to make…I’m quite hopeful they all turn out the way I want them to be.
While on retreat last weekend, I discovered an old friend who is a PE Teacher. She dances pretty well and she offered to teach Edil and me the waltz for free. Sana maka-squeeze pa kami ng time. I really really want the dance!!
Hayyy..grabe tong trangkaso na to. My phlegm hasnt cracked up yet and I havent had any sipon draining yet so when I cough, you can imagine the feeling of your skull cracking up with echoing pa. Booosit.
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