17 Days to Go and Im Procastinating.

Gawd, I’m so anti-climactic. It’s crunch time already ang what am I doing? Yep, crunching. No. Munching. Munching on something.

The past few days I’ve been quiet doesn’t mean I was sooo busy with wedding preps. In fact, I have to admit I’ve been slacking, which just causes me momentary panic and then I begin to have this unbelievable calm even I dont want to feel. Im supposed to be panicking am I?

Im doing it again. I did it with every single important milestone in my life. Entrance test to college, Board Exams, the Final Q on pageants, a few minutes before Matthew’s head started crowning…I’m starting to detach myself. I have this way of “de-stressing” before a potentially stressful event. Parang, kayod kayod kayod tapos ooops…tama na. Whatever you do from here on, bahala na. Take it easy. Slow. Relax. I have always crammed and worked well with pressure na I slack off up until the “official crunch time” — mangyari kaya sa akin ‘to? Binabatukan na siguro ako ni Glo nito, hehehe.

Of course, I’ve been running wedding errands. Fitting here, ordering shoes there. But nothing an OC bride like I claim to be would do a few weeks of the event she had been planning for since that start of the year. Siguro kasi I have no one to help me with. Edil is the one down with the flu, Mom is busy, MOH has never been any help (except for the occasional pautangs now and then, and she has been in charge of the house), but wedding-related stuff, it’s all me. I haven’t opened my pink wedding folder since Saturday, and I haven’t organized the song list yet (pa din). The missallette is yet to be printed and we have yet to memorize our vows…pero, parang, kaboom…all of this is not important anymore?

I’ve been wanting to go out with Edil since June started. And so far, wala pa din. Parang I just want to prepare “US” for the wedding day itself. Matthew is starting Kinder School next week, so that’s another busy week.

And don’t get me started with the money. Maybe because I have just paid Matthew’s tuition and we have been running low on funds, that I’m guarded with buying wedding stuff - wine glasses, server sets, guestbooks…etc. Next week na lang sya, when our funds are revived with the upcoming sweldo.

Which leads me to…
I’m going to be on leave starting on June 15.

By that time, I resolve to focus on myself, on the change after the wedding that is going to take place, and cherish the last few days of my “single-ness-in-just-a-figurative-way” life.

My friends (I think) might come up with a bridal shower for me….naku, if ever they read this, kakapalan ko na mukha ko. I want something spa. No kinky stuff please. Baka turuan ko pa kayo (hahaha). Im reserving seeing another man’s d*** up to my lovely gay friends(Dereeeeeek????? Hindi ako nagpaparinig ha!). I dont care if I go to a spa every single day before the wedding or get a massage everyday….I just want to go to spa! Another June 24 wowie bride, Vi, and I are planning to do a “body wrap” a day before the wedding….our arms need wrapping eh, hahaha.

Ugh. I’m bored. All I want to do is sleeeep.

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